I love music, it speaks to me. Can you tell? A few weeks back my husband sent a link to a song. He was struggling with physical pain and came across it. I had actually heard the song before as it was on my itunes music list. “Your love never fails” by Jesus Culture. There is a verse in it that sings “there may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning”…this really just spoke to him at the time. He was having a tough few days. He has chronic pain due to degenerative disk disease and some other stuff I want list because it just gets old. For him waking in the morning is when the pain is the worst, and waking brings disappointment that once again he faces a day unhealed. … Those words in that song were grace for his day!
When I heard the song, even though it was not the first I had heard it, it spoke to me. It spoke to me in a different way than it had my husband. Something simple, something that is said over and over just jumped out at me…. “You make all things work together for my good”
You are probably thinking “if you have even driven by a church you have heard that scripture”. I agree Romans 8:28 has been thrown around and is one of the most famous “christiannese” phrases spoken. I’m not trying to be rude. I’m just saying people take that and say it yet they really have no clue what it is they are saying. It has no life behind it. Just simply words they read in an old popular book.
In that moment it took life, it spoke life; it was grace for the moment for me. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose
My conversation with the Lord as I try to figure out what it is that my spirit is hearing: “God, does that mean this place I am in, these things that have taken place, this hurt I feel, this wrong that has been done to me, this wrong I have done (…….pondering…….) does it mean that you can take it and work something good out of it? God, you mean even things that were not in your will? Are you saying not only can you but you chose to make something of it? (…..wheels turning in my head …….) So this “Good” you can work out of a disaster, which is not just for anyone, just for those who love you, those who are called according to your purpose??? God I love you, I know I love you. But am I called according to your purpose (………………long pause………………………..) I’m saved, but am I CALLED (……………………more wheels turning……………… long pause……………. reading………………..) I’m called, I’m called, I’m called…..I’m justified too!!” Oh, well of course now I want to talk to him about being justified, but on another day!
You see this conversation I had with the Lord breathed life. I was no longer just reading words in a book. I cannot imagine what Paul was feeling when he wrote that, well I think I can imagine. For years I have heard it and it was just words. Probably because I was hearing them from either someone else or from myself, but this time I heard it from the Lord!
As life happens, as mistakes are made, as I find no matter how hard I try perfection is unattainable, I know He will still work in all those things and will work something for my good (not my want) and for His glory.